No Ship Floats Where Remembrance Does Not

I’ve spent months

that felt like years

trying so hard

just to sail away from you

and yet you’ve drifted closer

and more often by

then the wreckage

that I knew

so much better than yours.

I’ve sunk ships that were larger,

stronger,

and had much wider sterns than yours,

but I could never even poke a hole

in your sail

or leave a dent in your hull.

Now, as I ease and trim the sails

you fade to the distance

but as I turn leeward

the wind carries me back to you anyway

and I wonder if it even matters

the direction I face.

 

Hiding The Truth From Even Ourselves

Hey, how have you been?

(I’ve missed you)

I’ve been good.

(I’m a mess)

Yeah, It’s been awhile.

(I’ve thought about you everyday)

What are you doing these days?

(Tell me you haven’t moved on)

Oh, that’s great.

(Fuck)

Me? Yeah, nothing serious though.

(No, not since you)

Yeah, it was good to see you too.

(Don’t Go)

Don’t Stand Fixed In The Same Place A Fire Once Burned

Let it go

and don’t expect it to return

because there is only one way

to make the same fire burn.

 

No matter how hard you wish,

or hope, or pray,

you know you stood to see

that burning flame’s last day.

 

Don’t get up

and try to chase it

because it’s already gone

and its time to face it.

 

The only thing left

for you to do

is drench the coal

and start anew.

Love Is The Word You Use When Nothing Else Makes Sense

I used to write love letters everyday to the same boy.

They were a little verbose but they were beautiful, to me anyway,

and held all of the words that I was always too afraid to say aloud.

 

I had become adept at articulating the feelings that consumed me

but the more he broke my heart, the less I forgave him,

and the less I wrote about love.

 

Now the word  sits bitterly in my mouth

and I write melancholy poems about stars and kids who don’t want to grow up.

They’re a little verbose, but they’re beautiful, to me anyway.

 

 

Never Knowing, Never Understanding, Never Believing

I never knew I could need someone so badly

but at the same time, not at all.

I never knew I could need someone so badly

and fall so deeply and madly

into a love I would have gladly

not believed, or recalled.

I never knew I could want someone so badly

but at the same time, not at all.

Find Me In The Last Place You’d Think I’d Be

Don’t be afraid of losing me

because I’ve already lost myself.

Near the forests and the trees,

by the beaches and the sea,

in the longing and the need,

to be somewhere else.

Don’t be afraid of losing me

because I’ve already lost myself.

 

Don’t Look Back, And If You Do, Don’t Stop

There is always apart of us that knows what we’re doing is wrong

but we make excuses to justify our mistakes

so we can run with them until we’ve gone just a little too far.

And we’re always looking back, aren’t we

at all of the chances we had to save ourselves,

so that we miss the ones that are passing us by.